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40 years ...rip

Well, it has been a while since I put anything up here, with any meaning. My work flow exploded this year, after a suicide attempt, I have to add. During this failed attempt to end my life, instead I reconnected with the kid in me, that guided me trough this whole journey, from this attempt, up to this day ...it feels a bit like Modigliani's search for meaning, where the kid in him is found again, just playing around, making it all right again, to live, to be, to exist. It's a very strange thing to realize, experience, ...this whole process. Not that I advocate suicide attempts, but I just can't shake away it's relevance, this whole process: to seeing, feeling your inner child to be evoked again, to reignite life itself ...a V from vendetta experience (or very similar) to say the least: Since then, an explosion happened with works, experiences, laughter also, very similar with early experiences, seeing my goals being achieved, f...

I often describe things more recently as; for instance as an atheïst, that needs God so badly, to prove that he does not exist, a rationalist that needs chaos, to prove it's own uncertainty towards more flexible thinking or as Watts tried to say: prickly and goo :-)) ying and yang and the thing rolls on and on ... while no one can seem to grasp the answer ...

1.75-2-3 tonns of co2 yearly ... in an avarage environment of 8-11 tonns ... I just can't help it ... at your service :-)

Homo Sapiens live in an epoch unlike anything throughout history, figuratively speaking, as far back as Adam and Eve, especially since 1950 “the times they are a changin’” with headlong speed. In fact, ever since 1950, The Great Acceleration has taken off like a space ship destined to hit warp speed, accelerating faster and faster. As this evolves, humanity risks becoming “a bug looking for a windshield.” Here’s the issue with The Great Acceleration: “Only after 1945 did human actions become genuine driving forces behind crucial Earth systems” (J.R.McNeill/Peter Engelke, The Great Acceleration, The Belknap Press of Harvard University Press, Cambridge, London, 2014, pg. 208). Still, Earth spins within the solar system at the same rate as it has for eons, whereas in stark contrast to that steady timeless global spin, humanity’s anthropogenic spin turbocharges the entire planetary ecosystem. This has never happened before, and thus, people need to brace themselves for a...

Chris Martenson and Tom Murphy, discuss our predicaments in the clearest possible way. download mp3   (source: damnthematrix)